After my last entry, Comcast decided to provide shoddy internet service, so I haven’t been on my computer much. Someone finally came out and fixed the problem today, and I had a wonderful evening, so I am in the mood to get back to writing for this thing!
Last week, one of my former co-workers informed me that I still had my little purple lunch bag in the community fridge. I’m sure that it was full of moldy Pyrex, so I told her to throw it out. A couple of days later, she texted me to tell me that she was having a difficult time getting rid of it. It seems silly, but I was very touched. Poor lunch bag…I guess it was another realization that I wouldn’t be coming back to use it.
Seeing that picture led to a couple of trains of thought…first, that I, too, feel the need to be “reused.” Although my first career didn’t work out as I planned, I yearn for another company to be willing to utilize my skills and hire me.
Secondly, I am grateful to be missed so much. I left true friends at my job, and it means the world to be remembered and have my absence felt. I am not sure if I will have the opportunity to work with such a great team of people again, but I do know that those people have left a lasting impression on my life. I miss them, as well. It is hard not seeing everyone when I spent so much time working with them.
Day 23 – 27 of Unemployment: Tonight, my former boss took me out to dinner (here’s a link to the restaurant…if you have one near you, do yourself a favor and go, it is amazing http://www.nandosperiperi.com/contentright/FEM/Famous_Menu.html). It was a fantastic evening, and it struck me that very few people in the world would care to keep in touch with an employee that they had to lay off. It has been nice to maintain a relationship outside of work, and I had been feeling so thirsty for good conversation! I feel more at peace now than I have in a while, because it is incredibly reassuring knowing that someone wants you to succeed and is willing to help you do so. I think that as humans, we tend to focus on our own problems, and forget that we can brighten someone’s entire existence just by caring about them and checking on them. I have been trying my best to keep in touch with as many people in my life as I can, despite being so stressed. We all have our problems!
My boyfriend has always told me that I am fascinatingly (to him) empathetic. It is a personality trait that I feel lucky to have. Exhausting at times, yes, but the relationships that we form throughout life can bring so many lessons and meaningful emotional connections. I’d rather care too much than too little. As I grow older, I find myself extremely drawn to others who are the same way, as it truly brings a deep sense of fulfillment. Sadly, it is a trait that appears to be rather difficult to find. When you find people you bond with, hold on to them!
My “ex-director” also has a new job lead for me that I am excited about…I will keep this little blog world updated if I am able to get an interview. The job market has been pretty slow, lately. Trying to keep my spirits up. On a whole, I feel I’m doing fairly well, considering. I had my two nights of heavy drinking (one the night of the layoff, two on my night out with friends to blow off steam!) but other than that, I am grateful to have remained strong without falling into bad habits. I try to stay productive and keep everything in perspective. I have applied to a lot of positions and know I am doing the best I can. Hopefully someone will want to “reuse” me soon 🙂